by siti fatimah tan

sad worried all kind of depressing feelings

2011-11-01T04:21:00.000-07:00

baru minggu lps teman ibu for pet scan. everything went fine. she look ridiculously healthy for a women who's diagnose with lung cancer. kiteorang pegi shopping dinner bagai lagi jalan2 lagi for 3 whole days. tapi ntah mase hantar kat airport tu rase mcm xnk bagi ibu pergi. salam ibu setitik tiik air mata keluar. she told me to study hard. and for 3 days she's staying with us all she said is how much she's regret that she's the one who suppose to take care of bapak. since bapak dah tua and sakit. but now all of the sudden Allah bagi ujian lagi. ibu msg harini terduduk aku baca. ibu dah stage 4. how can this be. hospital slh diagnose ke mula2 dulu? atau ini semua mmg ketentuan Allah. tapi kali ni confirmed. straight aku bgtau kakak and minx tlg dia blikan ticket aku ke serawak. aku nk teman dia. i want to be by her side. teman dia kemo. take care of my adik2. Ya Allah both of my adik are still kids. aiman aisyah. kakak dtg. kakak nk jage ibu aiman aisyah bapak. ibu... ya Allah kalau apa2. aku xtau aku bole trima ke x... bapak dah tua. anak kecik lagi. ya Allah kau redha kan lah aku dgn ujian kali ini. ubahkan aku menjadi insan yang kuat sebagai tiang kepada keluarga aku. ibu.. maafkan siti ibu. ibu banyak tlg siti. kali ni siti akan tlg ibu. mcm mane sekali pun.

2011-05-10T20:29:00.000-07:00

hating somebody is perfectly normal. but living with the person u cant even look at. is another story. sometimes i could just grab a knife and teer this son of evil. i'll do anything for my family. i die for them. i don't mind going to jail. but i don't want to be send out to hell. murdering somebody isn't a small issue. i cant change the way things Allah's arrange. i want to have a future too. haritu ma ckp "nanti siti khawin ma yang jodohkan" i was like shaking. aku serious mcm nk meletup. haritu freakin mother's day plak! aku trus ckp "ape ma ni. mmg xlah" then aku masuk bilik. aku menyesal xckp ma nk siti kawen kat thailand? sbb aku nk die betul2 paham yang aku xnk. i'm not her little baby. i'm a grown women. i'll choose on my own. even if i make a mistake. it will be my own mistake to blame. k.neeyah ade crite yang dulu ma merisik die pun mcm tension2 ma tanye k.neeyah byk kali betul ke nak kawen dgn abg aku since abg aku gaji xseberape. k.neeyah sampai nangis2. i know how pushie my mom can be. i felt bad for k.neeyah. she's the best thing that ever happened to my family. i know behind mata duitan ma ni still ade some goodness in her. but theres a living ugly creature name "sam" living in our house keep hasut2 ma. kakak kawen pun mcm tension2. aku mcm nk g tengah2 "stop everybody!!! see how stupid things are. we should be celebrating. not fighting. we should figure out how to kill a monster living here." dah lame diorang gaduh pasal ni. i dont think it necessary its damn stupid! ma plak nk buat ape2 ckp ngan monster tu. ckp la ngan aku!!! aku ni tunggul ke situ? bodoh sgt ke aku??? kebudak2kan sgt ke aku ni? xcukup matang??? ni aku nk bgtau aku 100X lagi matang dari semua yang dalam rumah ni. kecuali k.neeyah. okay i'm done. xbley panjang2 ade orang dtg buat toilet. and sam menyemak dlm bilik aku. aku hempuk jgk lampu kat psycho ni.

lame gle xpost sbb abg pinjam broadband

2011-05-09T10:23:00.000-07:00

mom's day? horrible. scratch that. i cant talk about depressing things now. since i had a great day.
okay yan gaji. truly rase janggal sgt. sbb slame ni kite klua. aku mkn aku bayar. aku mmg x depend kat die. i know his out of cash so aku ada banyak bende lagi nk hargai pasal die slain duit. aku mampu tanggung diri sendiri. aku xbatak orang belanja. aku xbatak hadiah bunga. i have something ridiculesly more than that. i have his love. ewwwww hahaha. so harini mcm aku nk bayar die nk bayar. mcm aku xnk first gaji spend kat aku. aku nk die bg duit die kat mak die actually. that's what he's suppose to do. da lame die xkerje ape slh ringankan beban ma die skali skale. tapi die end up bli quiet a lot for me. i like it. i wont lie. but mcm janggal skit. still. i'm content. even if his broken to pieces again in the future i'll be by his side. and of course he'll never know :)

2011-04-18T03:12:00.000-07:00

boring harini. patut klua ngan yan harini. g buat ic die la ape la. tapi harini die keje. mr.ivan nak die keje. pape lah kau. adoi. last2 stuck kat umah ni. baru nk ajak yan g library. ni kat umah ngan sam je. geli aku. die pegi depan aku lari. die g dapur aku lari. ketare sgt kan? ah lantaklah. die bkn rase ape pun.

The world is broken.

2011-03-11T22:55:00.000-08:00

2minggu aku duduk hutan. banyak cipanzi2 dlm hutan last week.
xtau menahu world's a mess right now. tsunami ha?? tu pun yan bagitau. aku xtgk berita pun lagi. aku takut. yan ble nk khawin. xsempat mcm mane. nak jawab apa kat Allah nanti. to people i might seem low. because all i can think about my future not with big cars or gigantic houses. but just a small simple little family that i can be proud of. tadi all of us mention pasal bf kakak nk merisik next week. sejam die membebel. aku agak2 panas aku bla jap main ngan faten. dah sejuk aku dtg balik. aku takut terbukak silat je ngan sam tu. sbb aku tau ni bkn weeding aku. bia jela die ckp puas2 kang die diam la tu. kalau melayan dah macam budak2 plak kan. weeding ni aku nk happy2. kalau layan lagi spoil mood aku. aku mmg xfaham kakak aku susah sgt nk kawin. aku mcm mane????

2011-03-05T09:34:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BBY!

words can't describe how much i love you.

2011-02-12T09:58:00.000-08:00

ni bella. yang tiap kali aku dtg die akan melekatttt dengan makeup stuff aku.

note:asal tgn yan kental2 dlm pic2 ni???

tadi klua dgn ton nini dila semua. lame gleee xjumpe diorang. diorang pun ckp yan dah puffy dah. aku ckp aku jage baik punye, hahaha. tu pun tadi ingat xnk klua dah. ngantok gle kot. aku tido 5 ke 6 camtu. sbb teman yan celebrate bufday membe die. walaupun mate dah rabak tapi disebabkan membe die cerite menarik. sepah jugak lah gelak aku. habis membe yan kene la skit tempias2 tangan aku yang xbley duk diam ble gelak. itu perkare biase. siape kenal aku confirm tau yang aku gelak orang sblah mesti kene blasah2 skit. tgh cube mengubah la ni. crite die menarikkkk cite yang aku suke la. alam2 ghaib. tapi versi funny. :D

2011-02-01T22:29:00.000-08:00

ow hey. aku sepatutnye menjalankan tugas kemas beg. tapiii malasnyeee. hmm. okay nanti2 la.

smalam kakak ckp yang mak ade menyuarekan hasrat nk beli krete. aku pun terpikr owww padan la anak sam ade kat sini. anak sam jual kreta. tapi he's nice. xmcm bpk die. tapi aku mcm agak bengang la. time jual kelisa 2bulan lps ckp sbb we out of cash. ni nak tambah hutang pahal lak. kelisa tu pun dah habis bayar kot. kalau x aku skang ni ngah suka2 pegi melaka naik kereta tau tak?? aku mcm agak panassss ngan sam. sbb die yang pakse2 mak aku jual kete. skang die nk tambah beban mak aku. da la mamat tua ni xkeje. nasib baik kakak aku pujuk mak aku dpd buat keputusan paling bodoh skali. nasib baik mak trima. sejak dua menjak ni mak makin rapat dgn kiteorang. n die paham kalau aku xlayan sam bodoh. k lah. nk kemas. bye2 muah2.

2011-02-01T04:23:00.000-08:00

okay today lovely. kejap hujan kejap panas. lame xpost kan. kalau hati aku happy gile or sad menonggeng baru rajin. okay! hariniiiii ape lagi la kan kalau xklua ngan yan. haritu aku pakse die potong rambut. so tadi nampak die baru prasan klaka jugak ngan tlinge capang die.die xnk potong aku sampai ikut skali masuk kedai gunting rambut ni. suruh (org ptg rambt) potong semua kat blakang, tepi. sian die kan. die ckp xnk aku buat bodo je. baru aku pasan harini klaka dgn tlinge capang die. eh jap khurafat. menyesal aku tgk. klua suare jantan aku jerit. dah tu je. jalan kat IKEA mcm orang baru lps khawin. itu jelah. dah la bosan la. bye.

tgk siannnn die. dah xganteng lagi hahahahhaah!!!

seharian aku bahan die camni. tapi xdela secomel ni. kalau sebenar2nye ade minx penyepak jgk.

2010-11-25T08:17:00.000-08:00

okay. my hair. -.- i miss the old one.

2010-11-25T08:12:00.000-08:00

Harry Potter... Okayyy lahhh. i still prefer the 1st though. its more colorful more imaginative more excitement. i'm childish so there you go. this one is all about fighting demon who apparently have no nose. Voldermort. eh did i spell it right? i've no idea. haha. i literally hold myself to fall asleep. i slept at 5 morning. so.... Ah! i've eaten something that i really want to try for a very long time. okay now i'm forgetting the name. bam.. something??? ahh! but it is really damn goooodddd. its a korean dish. u should try it. theres a new like food court lower ground at TS. theres plenty of choice there. i just went craaaazyyy.

i spent the whole day with my baby <3 may fav things to do.

2010-11-15T05:15:00.000-08:00

i shouldn't known better that sam is not worth to be trusted. every little word he says u can just put it in dumpster. i have no idea why i'm sooo stupid treating him nicely and perhaps he means what he said. and mom is getting worst la. i cant live in this house without getting some splash from their nonsense stupid fight. when she's not happy she's putting all on me. well i'm the only one that left! her beloved husband is either sleeping or out lepaking. tadi baru ma ckp. with her straight face. 'esok tlg ma masak ek. ma jemput orang dtg. senyum ek besok, jgn masam' i'm out all day dgn yan so i've a blast today. she is the one who's making faces all day. bile aku blk masammmm. aku happy2 tanye dah mkn belum. masammm. aku tgk laki die xde. no wonder lah masam. tapi apasal ckp kat aku cmtu. nak je aku ckp. i'll smile if u smile and dont let the stupid monster switch your mood and put on me! fyi u do that all fuckin time. why laaaa. i hate la this fella. i could kill him with my bare hands. why la ma is acting like this. your so blinded with ur love you cant even judge right??! what is the purpose of both of u giving lectures to us if BOTH of you so fuckin mess up! sometimes i just hate both of you. sometimes i felt yan's place is more warming and welcoming than my own house. even his house just loaded with his brother and sisters. and they'll talking really harsh. like babi. eyy i hate them!!!! i just hate them. i hate that sometimes i'm being to nice to both of them. because she is my mother! why cant i be a cold hearted like my sister. she dont give a damn about them anymore. both of them treating me like a servant. i dont mind it with my own mother. but i just want to burst out cried if she do it in front of her husband. i just felt so deeply low. i want my family back. plsss. can someone give it to me... nk bapak. nak mak. nak abang. nk kakak. i want my family back...... i just cant hold it no more. i just need my family. and now i'm fuckin crying. i hate this.

2010-11-10T08:33:00.000-08:00

amoi ckp 'waaa amoi lambut u manyak nipis aaa u tamau kasi potong ka kasi naik sikit. lambut u manyak gugur' waaaa... tanakkkk. last time i remembered i look like Hana giant. i have a freakin big head. and i'm big enough i dont want to add the icing on top of the cake. my mom thinks it is a great idea. she's always like it when i'm in my short hair. its like i'm still her 6years old daughter. sbb sy bulat2 mcm bola. ergghhh tapi rambut banyak guguurrr... xnk rambut pendek. xnk botak jgk. ergghhh. bkn sng nk menyimpan rambut ni.

2010-11-02T11:51:00.000-07:00

2010-11-02T10:28:00.000-07:00

ey. it has been a loooong time eh. nothing interesting to talk. i don't have any kind of depression lately. no good news either. my life's getting sucks gile. i'm like a husband's devoted wife. i love him and all. but it get pretty bored. okay this is what usually happens to me when i get to over 2 years of relationship. but i still love him though. okay screw that. my finale's finishing. i've one paper to go. i hate econs but i love mdm. aaarghh i dont know i just want to past all of this soon. plus i cant wait to get my hands on the sims (game). i get distracted easily. what can i say. i'm fragile :)

eh BESTNYE raye!!!!!!

2010-09-14T10:38:00.000-07:00

bkk facebook tgk gamba raya org. sumpah seriously rase nk nangisss je. rase je ke? hmm. pagi raya aku dah sgt2 agak. sam akan kelam kabut. abg dah set tripod nk tgkp gamba. babi sam suh grak die ckp xpyh. mule la teketar2 die. aku x faham la die. nk teberak ke? kedah akan runtuh dlm sminit lagi ke? eh, sumpah la xphm. ma aku pun ikuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut. aku mmg mencarut mcm haram lah kn. pagi2 dah buat aku buat drama pagi kat situ. sudahnye. diorang grak dulu sbb diorang satu kreta. sumpah aku taip ni pun ade gak laptop rosak kene banjir air kang. eh wei. xpaham la. boleh sape2 paham kn aku kenape die mcm haram? eh weeiii kenape weeeiiiii tlg la weeeiii aku xphammmm... sape2 tlg laaaaa.

okay. smalam jumpe yan. habis duit raya aku. sian yan kene teman aku. pnt die perli aku. tapi aku nk beli jgk. sudahnye dompet penuh dgn card n duit syiling je. dgn family aku camni korang faham kn kenape aku sgt2 perlukan yan. die je yang bley buat aku gembira. sanggup kene maki dgn aku sbb sbnr2nye aku byk sgt masaalah kat blakang ni. die xpernah merungut. die terima. kdg2 aku rase bertuahnye. aku harap sgt akan kekal. tapi ntah la. ade lagi ke cinta kekal skrang? manedeeee...

eh aku xhabis mencarut sal sam la. wei. aku benci die wei. xley tgk muke die aku rase cam nk tumbuk wei. wei wei wei. ni bley membuatkn aku blk kepade tabiat yg lame!

2010-09-02T11:38:00.001-07:00

Braced myself for the goodbye,

'cause that's all I've ever known,

And you took me by surprise,

you said "I'll never leave you alone."

2010-08-29T06:59:00.000-07:00

harini separuh hari teman ma shooping. padahal nk carik kasut raye aku tuh. blk2 periuk mak balik2 periuk mak. umphhh xpela sekali skale teman die beli barang, rasenye kalau aku xde she must be missing me damn much. bukan nk perasan but mmg tgl aku sorang jela anak die yang die jage. i love her and always do. walaupun kadang2 menyentuh perasaan aku ni. aku akan cube paham. now forget the drama. sy dapaaaattttt seluar n baju. thanks mum. kasuttt hmmm xde yang menarik perhatian lagi la. aku pakai slipe je kang raye ni. nk cilok sikit kasut dari almari kasut kakak aku yang ade dlm kete tu. (die mmg men campak je kasut dlm kete, die ingat almari?) kakak aku ni taik idung masin plak. sib baik kau blikan aku eyeliner tadi kalau x mmg aku ngah touching ni! eleh ugut mcm die kesah. okaylah besok kene balik hutan balik. huhhhh malasnyeeeeeeeee.

2010-08-15T08:33:00.000-07:00

harini terawikh diiiiiiii Masjid Wilayah!! akhirnye lps rindu last year nk terawikh kat sini. sgt cantik. sgt bersih sgt selesa. and suare imam sgt3 lahhh sdp. brape kali aku sebak time sembahyang. dah la time sujud dgr mak sob2 sikit. lagi laaaa aku sebak. fyza (roommate) mesti suke sbb byk calon2nye. tringin nk bwk yan someday. :) haish ade ke satu entry yang aku xsebut name capang ni? :))) tapi seriously. rajin2kan lah pergi terawikh kat masjid ni walaupun jauh sikit. but sgt2 lah berbaloi. lagi2 time malam. masjid ni sgt2 lah cantik.

2010-08-15T00:28:00.000-07:00

okay birthday. xsebest korang punye birthday but dapat spent time dgn my baby is more then enough for me. i love you.auuwwwhhh... haha! blk2 rumah ma msk my favorite. aku xbleyh nk ckp. perut bekeroncong ni puase. mlm kakak bli cake. oreo cheese cake. secret recipe nyum3. aku xprepare ape. tangkap2 gamba. aku ckp kat kakak. dah mcm birthday bibik kau x? sbb i'm wearing a damn big shirt. and muke penat tlg ma msk. sampai ke depan kiteorang gelak tgk gamba aku. thanks my family. i love you. nk msg bapak. tapi xmsg2 lagi kn. hurmmm.

2010-08-11T23:27:00.000-07:00

selamat berpuase peeps!!!
uwhh second puase ponteng class for the whole damn day. dah la ade 4 class! weyhh xsng duduk aku. mulenye nk tipu ma skit2 je. sbb aku nk ponteng sekelas je. ingat die nk hantar dlm tengahari camtu. sekali die masuk bilik ckp 'ma hantar siti mlm ye. bleyh kakak ikut skali sbb u.sam xnk ikut.' aku pun mcm 'ngeeeheeee' nk je aku ckp 'ma! class xjadi cancel ma! ma hantar siti skrang ma!' tapi cam kesian plak. xkn die nk hantar aku sorang2. pegi xpela. kang blk? and then esok plak nk blk kl blk sbb yan ajak bkk puase same kat umah die. n bley sambut birthday dgn die! yeye! tapi ntah. rase cam bazirrr je duit aku pegi blk ni. lagipun nk jgk rase sambut dgn roommate or level mate. tapi birthday nk jgk jumpe maaaakkkkk!!! nk jgk nk jgk. xjumpe cam xbirthday la aku. da la ma dah ckp smalam 'birthday siti sabtu kn? xblk?' aduhhh maaa.. menusuk. umphh. blk kut. buat sape2 nk kenekan aku dgn fath (kembar xsame rupe tapi same birthday) lupeeeekn jelerrr.... kite sambut same2 time cuci toilet ekkkkkk.... hehehehe!!!

2010-07-24T21:40:00.000-07:00

i miss unikl. if the only thing that i can turn back. is how i studied there. there's no backstabber there. no two faces. no stupid rules. food is everywhere. my family is close enough so i don't have to burden anyone. and i had the besttess friends there. nana nini ton and all the names that i'm missing toooo mush. they'd never know. erghh how i wish this is all only a dream, or i could turn back time. i hated uitm. all because of the stupid coco. and the surrounding. well i post something later. mak ngah's here, visiting. umm. later.

2010-07-17T09:27:00.000-07:00

2010-07-16T03:09:00.000-07:00

peoples are hypocrite, its a fact. don't go shaking ur head. because its human nature to lie when they trying to escape from something, or maybe trying to protect something good. its a good deed depend on what ur intention is. a friend could be, possibly, talking behind ur back with someone in some place, we know something is wrong. they are behaving really as normal as they can. but when u'r asking something and they didn't gave u the truth. u can see. how their eyes not looking straight to yours. or trying to change the subject by acting extra friendly. come on. I've done this before. everybody has. it is funny. but its the human nature. i'm experiencing this. but i'm trying to think positive as i can. they couldn't possibly forget how fun we are when we're together. i'm thinking positive because i'm pretty damn sure i haven't done anything wrong to them. and to somebody someone. u have got to stop all the drama, because i'm sick of it. i'm sick of fighting. we're in U. what the heck is wrong with you still stucking in high school and be such a cry baby. boo you.

2010-07-10T09:30:00.000-07:00

everything just went sooo wrong from yesterday. my heart just beats faster. and my stomach... urghh i hate this feeling. i just want to break down. stuck in my room and cry. i miss him badly. really no one have any idea what i'm feeling. its our anny. and it sucks so bad. but its not his fault i'm feeling this way. its just that i'm really not a talk person. i'm extremely shy with someone new. or someone that i'm not related with. i usually smile and walk away. i'm easy with that. i don't have much to talk. i'm not very friendly. i have no confident in myself at all. I've been told what to do since i'm a little girl. everybody around me was too bossy that i can't even say a word. that is how i grew up with. and i'm stuck with that. i'm thinking too much. i'm hoping i can get away from him. from his life. i'm comfortable alone. maybe i'm not ready.

2010-06-25T09:55:00.001-07:00

i wanna i wanna i wanna

2010-06-25T09:32:00.000-07:00

okay last monday. he sent me home as usual. then die tanye. mane phone u? aku buat bodoo je. tgh mls nk carik. tgh duduk2 tu aku rase seluar aku basah. bukan kencing ye. aku tgh pangku beg time tu. aku bukak beg jeng jeng jeng. dalam beg basah dgn air coke. and phone aku kat dalam. berenang2 dgn girangnye. aku muke selambee je. yan plak kelam kabut sikit. suruh pakai phone die la. macam mane nak call u lah. aku xtau la nape aku mcm xde perasaan je. mybe sbb time tu baru dapat game baru. so mcm excited pasal game. ni skrang tgh menyesal lah ni. dah 5 hari weiii. rindu weiiiiii....... ape lah kau tgh buat ek capang. joli ke? pegi sembahyang jumaat x tadi? hadoi. ni nak menyampah ni. tapi tadi kakak mcm okay nk blikan aku phone LG cookie. ooohhh alagkah bahagienye kalau aku dapttt... xde yan pun xpe wei! hehe. tapi ntahlah. ntah2 xjadi. xley nk excited sgt pasal bende2 ni. uuuhhh..

2010-06-16T13:18:00.000-07:00

yan just called. i'm worrying sick about him. dia dmm. kan bagus kalau boleh pegi rumah die esok and bwk die to clinic. tapi aku still fobia lagi. adoi. rase2 jalan dah okay blk. tapi time roundabout aku jadi mcm nk menjerit2 dlm kreta. mcm ape mmg menjerit2 pun. i hope he's gonna be okay tomorrow. harap2 xde h1n1 or ape2 lah. if it's serious i just don't know what to do.

2010-06-16T13:08:00.000-07:00

i love watching this, this could change my mood no meter how bad my day is. he appreciate his friends even if his a squidward . he show me how simple life could be.

2010-06-16T11:57:00.000-07:00

my 2year and 2month anniversary gift :)

i felt bad to him thought. it cost more than he expected. thankies baby <33

bubu

2010-06-15T09:13:00.001-07:00

i want to stay awake late at night talking on the phone with you for hours, laughing. i want to buy pizzas and watch movies in socks. i want to take silliest pictures of both of us. i want to be part of your life, an important one.

2010-06-14T06:44:00.000-07:00

owhh lupa nk ckppp... i pass all my paper. thank God kan? but my pointer's not great lah. but who cares, i pass! i pass!

2010-06-14T06:26:00.000-07:00

sumpah bosan harini, eh bukan hari2 ke? emm xpelah. yan just text me. die dmm. alololo. nk huggss.. hahaha. nk xnk esok kene la jugak jumpe die. bwk ubat bagai sbb aku tau confirm die xpegi klinik. mls dah nk suruh2 mamat ni. ....... umm harini dpt surat lagi about U mobile. damn it lahh. bile this company nk leave me alone. asal aku nk bahagia je die muncul minx duit. masaalahnye dah brape kali pulak aku pergi center die. and die ckp xpayah bayar, sbb aku xpakai pun bende buduh tu! shit. minx duit plak. xbagitau ma lagi nih. adoi. cakap pasal ma. ma and kakak promise nk blanja sushi tomorrow. awwwhhh me likeyyyy.. ni semua sbb pasal aku minx barang2 ntuk buat sushi. u know, bamboo mat ape lagi? ummm sushi rice. and stuff lah. ma ckp those stuff are expensive. i don't know i think if we buy the sushi itself will be more expensive right. maybe she just don't want me to make sushi, maybe she think i can't do it. oh well as long as the sushi is in my stomach i'm happy.

2010-04-18T10:17:00.000-07:00

it has been yearss kan xpost anything. saye sgt2 la mls nk menaip2. anyway final dah dekat. i don't know why as all my friends seems excited, panic, or maybe scared. truth is, i feel nothing. i think the timetable is great. thank God. i am hoping for damn good result, don't get me wrong.

tadi pegi dinner dgn famly, fatin pun ade. ahhh she's getting politer. i love her soo much. i rarely see her this past few month. gosh she can speak clearer! =))

2010-02-18T08:29:00.000-08:00

this lyrics totally reminds me of my childhood and my current life.

paramore-the only exception

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And cursed at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darlin,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

saranghea auwwww

2010-02-18T07:31:00.000-08:00

all my collection from gongxifachai sudah habis dibawa angin. berlalu sepoi2 bahasa. hahahaha! but I've freakin fun today. jumpe capang. he's getting hotter and hotter. i never say this to him. n never would. or else he would probably dump me for a drop dead gorges chickas. back to the main topic. i bought handbag, sunblock(thanks to uitm lendu my face is getting worst and worst, and i blame global warming too, which cause by humans) =p and a hat which yan pick out for me. <3

yan's birthday is another 2 weeks. an empty box maybe. cuz i'm broke.

sorry babe =)

2010-02-17T01:46:00.000-08:00

lagi bape hari je cuti.

i love gong xi fa chai and stuff.

but i have tons of work now. essay. accounts. math. my essay is really cincai punye kerja. no fresh ideas. nothing. i was suppose doing my homework now. but my head was thinking about tomorrow. i'm too excited about meeting up with yan. erghh how much i miss that capang. ma take a leave for the whole week. she must missed me too much. i miss her too. anywhooo. last night kakak almost say buhbye to her new Iphone. she left it at a restaurant. it's an iphone people! no one would pass that. alhamdulillah we rushed back to the restaurant and no one notice there's two thousand phone just on the seat. lucky right? she's hestarically happy.

emotion

2010-02-16T23:36:00.000-08:00

stop the war, stop the pollution, stop the madness someone please.

2010-01-10T04:00:00.000-08:00

sampai bilik unpack bag. makin lame aku rase mcm makin kuranggg je barang aku. adoi, jeans aku tertinggal. adoi sitiiiii. adohaiiiiiiii... straight aku call baqek. nasib die kat selayang lagi. so kakak boleh pass kat die. LEGA. kalau x 2minggu berbaju kurung lah aku.

esok start class. umph mlsnye. xpuas lagi duk umah. xpuas lagi jumpe yan. byk bende yang aku nk buat. tadi ma hantar. mcm2 die pack kat aku. syggg die kat aku. missing her already. mak pack sambal. sedappp. duduk sini make me appreciate everything from ma. i sayang her so much.

2010-01-09T09:23:00.000-08:00

class dah starttt!!

lecturer pun nice2. xbyk gedik class aku. roomate dgn classmate same. aku tgk muke kau. kau tgk muke aku. tapi best la. sbb dpt roomate yang boleh ngam. pegi class kat uitm ni dah jadi mcm org gile. jalan sikit jumpe tangge. jalan sikit jumpe tangge. setiap kali jumpe tangge rase mcm nk tegelak. bykkk...... duit uitm laburkan buat tangge iye. but hopefully i'll get use to it soon. sbb itu lah yang aku kene tempuh hari2. tapi one thing yang aku sangat2 xsuke. ade coco. why uitm... whyyyyy... this kinda stuff lah aku plg benci xsuke n xambik pun time secondary school. damn it lah. setiap selasa. alahai kasimmmmmm. hmmm wuttuduuu. kene endure la jgk. ahh siti! be strong!

MMS UiTM

2010-01-01T07:34:00.000-08:00

mms week sudah habis!!

ye2.

ade best, ade takut, eh mcm2 la wei. boleh bwk crite sampai ke cucu cicit. mls plak rase nk menaip crite. umm. i'll make it short. berlakunye pesta histeria. time 'pesta' tuh 4 kali aku nangis sbb 4 benda. first. 'drama' pm dgn pm begaduh kat depan tgh2 kiteorang practise lagu mcm mak hilang anak. kedua. aku x pernah dgr org jerit histeria. and 1st time kene. nk dekat 20 org jerit mcm tu. aku rase mcm tengiang2 sampai sekarang. ketiga aku nangis sbb beg xjumpe. ade phone kot dlm tuh. camne nk call datin kalau xde phone ha4?? keempat sebab tgk semua selawat ramai2. masing2 tolong masing2. aku ingat lagi aku dah lari kedepan n orang sebelah yang aku xknl pegang tangan aku selawat same2. dalam takut2 sayu jgk. tapi dah lame2 aku dah tenang. walaupun org yang kene histeria x putus2 lagi.

kesimpulannye. mms week ni ok. penat biase lah. xtido normal. xmandi eh semua busuk mcm baru lepas celup air longkang. kau mandi la air minyak wangi skalipun. kau turun naik bukit bau kau dgn aku tetap same. kn3. normal lah kene tengking2 minggu orientation. aku sgt2 happy n bangga dgn diri aku sendiri. aku berjaye buat bende yang susah selama seminggu. xkn aku xboleh teruskan semangat aku ni. tadi sembahyang dgn abg, sebak aku abg ckp abg suke semangat siti sekarang. teruskan. aihh, dari tade semangat sbb 'pesta histeria' tuh terus aku macam i'll do this for my family, i'll make them proud. aku nk mak senyum sentiase. aku nk jage ma. nak bagi kesenangan, ketenangan. ape pun dosa pahala ma buat. itu antara ma dgn Allah. apa yang aku buat ni. untuk ma. dia dah byk habiskan duit kat aku. masak. tempat tinggal. dah byk sgt jasa datin kat aku. ;)

aku nk cp byk2 pasal uitm kang kene expel plak aku. kene kuat lah kalau nk blaja sini. kelas dengan hostel tengok jauh die pun dah bepeluh dah. xpelahhh. peluang kurussss. lagi satu.. smoking.. macam nk kene stop je. hehe. lagipun aku dah bagi yan semua rokok yang aku ada. sbb last day jumpe die mmg ade niat nk benti. yelah. aku xbleyh tgk la baby yang ade kat kotak rokok tu. sedih. penah skali fatin tgk kat sam punye kotak rokok die ckp. 'baby bedarah, siannn baby' aduh menusuk. umm. itu je kut. emmm. lagi satu sepanjang mms week kene masuk wad skali. sakit perut. myb sbb kurang air. yelah! tetengah terik tu xpikir ke?? bagi lah airr! aduhh. the simplest thing! air mineral je! aku xsuruh kau buat punch ke teh tarik ke, milo ais ke. pffft. kertas cadangan for mms week last day kene submit bape kali ntah aku tulis 'air' aku ckp 'bagi air' 'air penting ntuk manusia' n ntah ape lagi ntah. tapi semua okay. Alhamdulillah aku masih hidup so orientation week kali ni. aku xkn lupe, sampai bile2. for lots of reason.

2009-12-26T00:59:00.000-08:00

esok nak pegi

;(

takut....

mama, fatin, all my family my friends. damn it i'm gonna miss all of you.

yannn. i'm gonna miss you badly.

babi!

2009-12-20T10:50:00.000-08:00

something really bad happened today. amoi kat saloon potong rambut aku sgt2 pendek kat depan. fuckkkkk. aku nk nangis. i look like a freakin shrek. aku xnk klua rumah. nk duduk kat rumah sampai rambut panjang.. ahhh. why siti why.. why did u have to ngade2 potong rambut. u should keep ur unhealthy broken messy hair. it is wayyyyy better then this!

p/s: i wanna kill something, someone. i'm just freakin miserable. and sorry for the title. i really need to express my anger. so that i won't burn anything. babibabibabibabi

2009-12-19T10:20:00.000-08:00

kilatnye hidung kau siti.

yang bejuntai2 tu. kakak bought it for me. sampai malam aku pakai menatang nih.

kakak pun beli satu. dia ambik yang aku first2 nk. mls nk berebut dgn die aku amik lain.

lagipun she's paying.

2009-12-19T09:36:00.000-08:00

rumah baru abg. u can see the sweat. yeahhh.

haha

family

2009-12-19T09:00:00.000-08:00

lame xupdate bcause i've been soo busy.
abg tido rumah 2 hari. so i have no privacy. but i have tons of fun. fatin ade. cepat betul minah tu besar. dah xlarat nk dukung dah. macam mane la aku pegi melaka nanti. would she remember me? i'm gonna miss her badly. lagi2 bile die ckp masuuu... aduhai. cair. mls nk ckp pasal 2 hari ni. sooo i make it short. kiteorang pegi mkn dkt mane ntah. tepi laut. mkn ramai2. even sam ade. tapi sbb ramai2 camtuh. aku rase mcm die xdeee je. that's a bonus for me. and the second day. we angkat barang pergi rumah baru abg. dah mule nmpk macam rumah dah. just touch up sikit2. dah boleh stay sane dah. haritu mcm happy sgt. forget all the problems. work together. lift up all the heavy stuff together. it just crack me up. we really have a lot of fun. it has been too long since we all get together. ma was not there at that time. so there's no one to boos us around. not that i don't love u ma. =)
pagi tadi bangun2 abg kejut. diorang nk balk da. boo.. :(
but xkn diorang nk stay lame2kn. masing2 ade life masing2. plus i miss my bed. that's it kot. xbyk photo pun sbb i'm a bad photographer. nmpk makanan aku lupe camera. but can't blame me though. i'm starvish.

a dumb dumb waiter.

2009-12-13T05:22:00.000-08:00

i'm in a good mood today.. since i dpt my hair dryer. so mlm tu ma ajak pegi dinner. tapi ade something yang aku xsuke. sam ikut. kalau sam ade. confirm2 semua kelam kabut. nk cepat tu. nak cepat ni. aku xfaham. kunang2 tu nk roboh ke lagi 2 3 jam. but entah la. nasib baik aku kesiankan datin. anywhooo. dah sampai kunang2. pilih tempat pun kelam kabut. sam ni mcm cemas semacam je. sugar rush ke? dah duduk. tgh2 order dia ckp nyamuk la tempat ni. dah la ckp mcm rude nk mampus. then waiter tu pun ckp elok2 la. cik nak duduk mane. sane boleh? sam ckp xnk sbb xde kipas. pastu dia ckp kat waiter tu cm tengking2. paham x nyamuk? aku mcm nape orang tua ni. time nk ambik order lagi skali aku prasan waiter tu mcm nk lari dah. tapi kene panggil dgn sam bodoh ni. aku tgk muke dia mcm dah nk nangis. aku pun cam mls la nk masuk campur. kesian mmg la kesian. tapi mak aku ni pun hati kering je. belahkn sgt laki dia. senyummm je. mcm laki dia turun dari syurga. xbuat slh. dah la. bia lah. aku pun lapar time tu. aku nk order tapi aku x nmpk. sbb tempat tu gelap. and aku xbwk speck. so aku tanye waiter tu. menu yang satu ni dia include nasi x? tau dia jawab ape? aaa. cik boleh bace sendiri ye. dia ade tulis. with a bodohnye kau ni face. aku mcm. saye tanye sbb saye xnmpk. kalau nmpk saye xtanye. nakk je aku tambah don't let me put my feet down your throat. dia ni nk emo2 plak. tau la salah sam tu sbb tibe2 maki kau. but don't put it on me. i do nothing. i even asked u nicely u mothafucka. kau tu jantan. and kerja mmg macam tu. sometimes u have to deal with son of a bicth costumer. don't be such a crybaby. ahhh rosak mood aku. but nasib baik. lepas tu bukan dia yang serve kiteorg and waiter yang lain semuanye well behave. and the food is nice too. soo. it's a lesson for me. if i have to be a waiter or my job is to serve costumers. i've to control my emotion. even if i'm a big drama queen.

2009-12-13T04:53:00.000-08:00

finally dpt pun aku bende buduh ni. I've been searching this thing like crazy. sbb i need a tini tiny hair dryer so i can bring to melaka. dove have this promotion until Christmas. i think so. well.. amoi seems to like this thing very much. there's this one guardian and the seller said that one amoi dtg and borong semua. shit. almost every guardian ckp mcm tu. i gave up. tapi harini datin suruh teman sbb dia nak buat speck kat MJ. aku pun seret beg ikut dia. then baru aku tringat kat MJ de guardian. ahhhh. belari2 aku pegi guardian. ade!! seriously aku lompat2 kat situ. i bought 2 sbb cousin pesan satu. well actually datin bought it. thanks datin.

oh anyway. this dove promotion thinggy only rm 34.88. it have shampoo. conditioner,body wash, and a penasonic hair dryer.

2009-12-12T00:39:00.000-08:00

jee. lame xpost something kat blog.

nk kate busy xpun. tapi mls aku nk bukak dgn line yang fuck lembap ni. anywhooo. smalam pegi settle all the yuran and gamba, stuff2 for uitm la. and i had a fight dgn abg. ergh i don't want to talk about it. it just pisses me off. and to add the icing to the cake. i hit my head dgn pintu kereta. wahhh. what a great day huh. but at least mlm tu ayu ajak lepak. since it just the 3 of us. kiteorg pun pegi la amik yan. finally something good happen. i can get away from the house which i needed the most at that time.

moment that i'm gonna miss badly

2009-12-08T09:33:00.000-08:00

he said i snored. i said no i'm not. i just have this flu. so i can't breath right. he just laughed and his eyes sparkle. and i was like. damn baby. i love you.

i'm sick

2009-12-03T15:23:00.000-08:00

aku dmm smalam sekian.
nasib baik cepat kebah. i hate feeling sick. but i can skip all my chores. yeay me! smalam xbsh baju,xbasuh pinggan,xlipat tu,xlipat ni, n mcm2 lagi. and the best part is. i can ngade2 with everybody. tapi sebenarnye xpyh ngade2 pun. sbb semua jage kot anak bongsu ni. including 'si sam'. well he didn't do anything. at least he asked. n ckp 'jangan pakai aircond mlm ni'. surprising huh?! ntah la. I've to start appreciate my family. even it could be like a hell sometimes. i freakin love them all. n to capang. thanks for being so concern about me. you make my heart go melty2 seeing you so worrying about me.

2009-12-01T20:12:00.000-08:00

well morning!

bgn2 tekak rase semacam. hidung rase tersumbat. thanks a lot yan! bgn2 trus online. baru aku prasan. blog aku x de 'Navbar' mane menghilang ntah pakai templete ni. urghh. @#$%

change

2009-12-01T11:23:00.000-08:00

as you can see.

I've change my template.

it's more welcoming and warm. i still like my old template though. but it's too 'i'm depressed' template. but wtheck i can change it back if i want to. so let just enjoy the more friendly siti.

XD yeahh right. =p

2009-12-01T10:31:00.000-08:00

my collections.

i'm almost 20! and i'm still addicted to this doraemon thing.

smalam pegi jj ade popular. and ade bykkk comic doraemon. rase mcm nk duk besila bace kat situ. tapi kesian plak tgk yan. he-he

haji menuju Allah

2009-12-01T09:33:00.000-08:00

i know haji dah lepas. but i'm still listening to this song. it touch my heart every time i listen to this song. raihan-haji menuju Allah. i hope i can perform my haji anytime soon. i hope it's not to late by the time i can afford to go.

here some of the lyrics.

Pergi haji ertinya menuju Allah yang Esa
Membawa hati dan diri yang hina
Memberi hadiah kepada Allah
Berhati-hatilah menghadapNya

2009-12-01T09:08:00.000-08:00

some of fatin's pic.

she's sooo cute walaupun ngade2. nasib baik kau cute tennn!

2009-12-01T08:47:00.000-08:00

harini abg dtg.

tekejut aku. happy ade. xhappy pun ade. happy sbb fatin pun ade. rindu nk huggy2 bdk tuh. xhappy sbb abg mesti nk suruh semua orang suruh aku pergi serawak. faham ayat aku> die nk slow talk la dgn semua org kira nk support aku pegi serawak. boo. nasib baik he's my favorite abg. because they sure put a lot of pressure on me. and i pretty sick of it. mula2 semua okay. and abg pun aku tgk x ckp pasal hal tuh. kiteorang bakar satay ramai2. abg aku belikan baju yang

sumpah besar. lengan panjang plak tu. he is sweet but he's got a really bad taste. tapi xpe. aku pakai jgk. because my lovely abg yang bg. =)

here some piccs

sdp boleh bkk kedai.

tapi last2 sebut jugak. n sy confirm serawak. sekian.. i'm grumpy again.

he made my day

2009-12-01T08:40:00.000-08:00

ahh dpt pun jumpe tlinge capang smalam.

tgk muvie dgn die. ye2.

cite ninja assassin. besttttttttt. rain h-o-t-t-t. aku suke die sjk full house. sepanjang filem tu. aku mcm owhh handsomenyee. gugur jantung mak. yan plak handsome lagi aku. handsome lagi aku. bape hari ntah die x tgk cermin. best la jgk cite die. touching. part bunuh2 die mmg agak hati kering. so mmg bestttt. =)

drama hari semalam

2009-11-28T09:05:00.000-08:00

i'm a drama queen.

seriously. my eyes could pop out a lot of tears out of no where. maybe i've a lot of pain that i usually keep it to myself. maybe, could be, nehh for sure!

semalam lagi la. ok, kakak ajak klua. pegi rumah kwn die. die ajak pun just to babysit faten sbb die nk tunjuk faten kat kwn2 die. i don't mind that actually. aku tau prangai kakak, ade favor baru nk tehegeh2. but kwn pejabat die. pernah skali diorang ckp gemuknye adik faezah. aku kat surau kat office diorang time tu. time tu aku form 3 or 4 something. umm. sedapp je dgr kn? tapi aku xkesah. sbb mcm dah biase dgn perangai sesetengah melayu. jakun gamaknye. sian diorang selame ni duduk dalam almari. xpenah tgk org gemuk. siannnn. tapi smalam aku cam betul2 xde mood n tebalkan muke. slalunye aku tebalkan je. jadi cam org bodoh mcm org gaji. pastu blk teresak2 nangis dalam tandas. rutin biase tuh. mls nk tunjuk kat family aku yang aku kecik hati sebenarnye. sbb diorang mcm xpaham. aku xtau lah knp diorang xphm. kakak aku lagi la smalam. boleh dia gelak. die ckp aku klaka. and siap ugut2. die ckp 'xpe' byk kali. aku mcm. esh sampai hati kau ugut aku kan. aku byk kot bekorban ntuk dia. tapi aku xckp. mulut mcm xboleh nk ckp. aku just nangis dan nangis dan nangis. muke die selamba sahaja. macam2 memori aku tringat time tu. time mak nk pukul dia. aku peluk dia. mak marah2. aku coverkn. semua tu aku tringat and mcm damnnn bodohnye lah kau ni siti. kakak mcm ni kau jage. just sbb bende kecik aku xnk tlg die. aku xnk jadi org gaji die haritu. sbb kecik tu die ugut2 aku mcm aku bunuh laki die. esh dah la. ckp sal die mau sebuku aku xhabis. tapi aku kalau sedih or marah mesti sekejap gile. aku cam buat cam biase dah. gelak2. ntah la. dah lali ke? tapi sampai bile aku nk diam? kang meletup cam smalam.

.... hmm i miss him. nk jumpe kau la tlinge capang.

2009-11-27T08:36:00.000-08:00

tgk cite wall-E?

comelkan.

especially bile eva jerit wallieeeeee.

or wall e pgl eva. damn cute je.

=DD

might

2009-11-23T01:47:00.000-08:00

what I've posted yesterday sounded so stupid right now.

it's a funny thing how movies can change you. but i'm serious about getting married or wutsoeva. i even have a long conversation with yan just now. and we have so many dreams. that might not be possible. but we're humans. and humans make plans. insyaallah it just might happen.

2012

2009-11-22T08:45:00.000-08:00

i don't know where to start.. this movie gives me mix feelings. and i don't know how to describes these feelings. but i can tell. its an awesome movie. and my tears just drop one by one as i see Kaabah in this movie. my sin is too much to be count. it's a sad sad movie. where you can see people dying. people waiting to die. people trying to survive. pretty much the same with 'Qiamat' but for sure. there will be no survivor. the end is getting near. as soon as i arrived home. i text yan. if he really want me to be with him. he better start working now. because i want to be somebody's wife. i might sound ridiculous. but it is what it is. life is short. and i don't want to waste my time in sin. i want to have a family. a beautiful one.

babibabibabi

2009-11-16T09:06:00.000-08:00

why did you have to ruin everything.
kau buat hal lagi kan babi.
semak tol lah yan nih. semakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

Melaka lahh not serawak anymore =p

2009-11-16T02:35:00.000-08:00

i just email ibu. she’s my step-mother. and i love her. =)

salam ibu,siti dpt uitm di Melaka. too bad ct xdpt kat Serawak. i’m really hoping for that. but siti sgt2 happy sbb sekurang2nye Allah bagi siti peluang lagi sekali. no meter where it is. i’m going to work very2 hard this time. and siti still needs ibu’s couching. terima kasih banyak2 ibu. siti susahkan ibu saja. kirim salam dekat adik2 siti. i miss them. ibu tolong bagi email bapak. siti rindu sgt kat bpk. and sini xde phone yang siti boleh pakai untuk call bpk. kakak pon maybe harini baru blk sbb dia sibuk study. my phone is always out of credit. =p terima kasih ibu sekali lagi. siti’s going to email ibu often now. as i just learn how to email. =D

ibu, siti dpt pengurusan perniagaan. same course dengan kakak. kalau tukar course kakak ckp susah. and she think that i can manage. what do you think ibu?
assalamualaikum ibu, doakan siti. =)

yeahhh.. i’m still shaking. excited, scared the hell out, and thankful. Alhamdulillah…

Ah gong

2009-11-14T06:49:00.000-08:00

last week we (me, abg, k.neeya) went to our grandma house. which we call her ah ma. since my father is Chinese. even she’s over 80+ she still manage to cook us lunch. she’s still as hard working as usual. and she is a very very sweet person. my untie take out some old album for us. I’ve never know my Ah Gong. so, as i look trough the album. i saw this one a very drop dead good looking guy. i mean he’s really2 gorgeous. he is tall, i mean he’s nose, he’s just obviously the opposite from my family. and my untie said that he is my granpa. idk what to say. is my father adopted or something. i mean where the heck is my grand gen. he’s all tall and handsome. and all of my siblings is all short and obviously fat as hell and we got the whole jacki chan nose (big and round) thiggy doing.

crush

2009-11-01T09:17:00.000-08:00

Jared Followill =damn hot

2009-11-01T08:22:00.000-08:00

cute eh. =)

2009-10-31T07:42:00.000-07:00

sepanjang 2 hari aku jage faten.penatnye jage minah sorang tu.

smalam die xnk tido. pukul 1 baru tido. oleh kerane itu harini aku pening kepale. sbb tido xlena. takut die sejukke hape ke. tapi mak pakse jgk g MJ harini sbb nk

bwk fatin jln2. fatin pon aku tgk ngantok je. xpela bkn slalu jln2 dgn mak tok die. alang mak buat cemin mate harini. aku pon selit2 la nk check mate. sbb slame ni aku mmg dah mcm silau2 sikit. o aku nmpak 8. check2 diorang ckp tinggi jgk la. ape 100 lebih? tinggi ke?aku bkn reti sgt bende2 ni. first time. mak dgn kak neeyah cam tekejut. tinggi ke???? um. xpe lah. apek tu ckp kene pakai. nanti u punye mate makin teluk. nanti sudah xboley buat ape2. u kene pakai cpt. umm. sian mak. mahal jgk ek menatang nih. aku ingat 100+ .xpelah untuk long term kn. bkn pakai buang. lagipun aku dpt

colour yang purplish! ye2!

nilah rupenye. mcm cekgu murni. ngehe

anyway ni gamba2 fatin sepanjang 2 hari sy betungkus lumus menjage budak kecik nih.

2009-10-26T08:01:00.000-07:00

nk dunhill light please. (dah habis stok)
sorry terkelampauan kate2.

2009-10-26T07:45:00.000-07:00

hariini aku telah melanggar pantang larang yan.
myspace

heee.
aku da lame xon. tetibe harini tecuit nk bkk. bkn aku buat ape pon.
secmmnt due je dgn membe.
xde makne aku nk= hai awak buat ape tuh. bkn nye 15 thn lagi.

cerite lain
lady gaga, aku xpenah suke lagu die. ape yang sdp nye? xpaham. poker face, love game, kakak aku suke betul bkk lagu lady gaga kuat2 letak tepi tlinge die. tlinge die je xpe. tlinge aku skali. tapi akhirnye ade jgkk lagu die yg boleh diterime tlinge aku. first dgr kat fly. starting die xbrape menarik sgt. chorus die menarik gak lah. boleyy la. dari smalam dgr sampai harini tengiang2. papa papa razzi. hahahah (apelah aku merepek nih)

plaza rah

2009-10-18T01:09:00.000-07:00

aku dah janji dgn ton byk kali nk tido rumah die.
akhirnye smalam dpt jgk aku klua dari rumah datin.
lagipun diorang jela membe aku yang dekat dgn aku.
da lame xjumpe.
nini xde so aku tido tempat die.
tempat nini seriously sgt best.
rumah diorang tgkt 19. n nini tempat nini tepi tingkap.
mlm tu aku xley tido. tgk view die. cntk sgt. kalau aku pegi serawak nanti aku mesti rindu gile kl.
bkn kebisingan mlm KL. tapi ketenangan KL yang diterangi kelipan2 lampu.
da lame aku temenung sorang2 aku klua bilik borak2 dgn nana. dah lame aku xborak dgn nana.
boleh dikatekan aku sgt rindukan mase2 kat hostel. tgl sebilik serumah. mcm2 ragam manusia ade.
aku harap dkt serawak aku akan dpt membe yang same perangai sebiji2 macam diorang. walaupun ade kelemahan tapi aku lebih suke pandang bende2 yang aku suke tentang diorang.
myb aku skrang agak jauh hubungan aku dgn diorang. tapi aku xterase. kite ade life masing2.

skali lagi-tempat nini seriously best!

tmblr

2009-10-09T11:14:00.000-07:00

i miss tumblr damn much.
:(
nape xde org nk buat tumblr??
boring la xde geng.

hai name sy bik siti

2009-10-09T05:03:00.000-07:00

semenjak jadi bibik ni.
aku rase penat la.
penatt sgt.

jadi bibik umah datin yati ni korang kene tau. bkn senanggggg!
bkn seperti rumah biase.
lagi2 aku anak diorang lagi lah xsegan nk suruh aku buat mcm2.
kejenye mcm2. n semue kene SEMPURNE. kalau x aku kene buat lagi dan lagi.
iron baju. t-shirt ngan kain pelekat pon kene iron! xpham aku.
bkn kedut pon!
dah la ramai yang pakai baju bekeje kat umah ni. faizah (kakak aku) baju rumit2. tebelit sane tebelit sini. kdg2 rase mcm nk jerit je time iron baju. mood aku cpt tuka2. gelak pon dah jarang. slalunye gelak aku lah yang plg bising. sekarang ni muram je. kdg2 diorang xappreciate keje aku. n plg aku benci sorang pon xbasuh pinggan masing2 n main letak je kat sinki. laki xpela aku boleh la timbang rase sikit. ni yang pompuan. selambe dekkk je. mati ke basuh sepinggan? pinggan sendiri lak tuh. n mcm2 lagi lah aku xlrt nk explain.

betul2 buat aku mcm bibik kat umah. mmg la aku sendiri ckp aku bibik. tapiii. bknnye rela. kalau diorang appreciate aku myb aku x penat sgt. ni tekanan aku dgn care diorang. sakit hati. mkn hati. muke kene pakse senyum kalau x datin yati nanti crk point nk tengking aku. arghh...
uhuk uhuk. uwaaa!! keje NSK lah camni!!!

2009-10-08T06:19:00.000-07:00

So there’s this boy. We fight a lot. He makes fun of me because I can only stay on a
subject for like 5 sec. & Then I’m on to the next one, he listens to me when I’m sad
& handles me when I’m mad. I tell him “I hate you” & he responds with “i love you”.
Yeah he’s not prince charming, but to me he couldn’t be more perfect.

2009-10-08T05:52:00.000-07:00

klaka kn. =D tapi touching la jgk. =p

2009-10-08T05:48:00.000-07:00

2009-10-08T02:46:00.000-07:00

i read doraemon a lot.
almost everyday. i'm addicted to it.

tu yg muke same tu.
this is the last episode. menjela2 aku nangis. =D
funny eh

2009-10-08T02:29:00.000-07:00

black out selame 2 jam.
terime kasih lah ye!

october 08

2009-10-07T23:06:00.000-07:00

hari ni...
ummm.
boooringgg

ape nk buat ek..
umm mlm ni amik fatin lah.
bosan je xde bende nk buat kat umah baik aku jage minah senget tuh.

2009-10-07T01:20:00.000-07:00

i'm starting to love you soo very much

:)

2009-10-06T23:24:00.000-07:00

sudah jemu dgn tumblr.
=p
tumblr mmg best taaapiii rase mcm xde geng je kat sane.
byk org yang xknl.
tapi die punye function yang ade mmg best.
simple2 je.

anyway dah agak lame x update blogspot ni kn.
=)

ummm.
byk cite...
=p
hari raye mls lah nk cite. ade yang best ade yang xbest semuenye sbb sam.
duit raye bolehlahhhhhhhhhh walaupun makin lame makin sikit.
duit raye tu aku kumpul dgn duit upah jadi bibik kat umah dgn rasminye sy sudah membeli handphone baru!!! hehehe yan jgn jealous ngeh. dari smalam perli aku xhabis2 dgn phone. even kua dgn die smalam time tgh mkn aku tgh belek lagi phone tuh. hehe. yelah da lame kot tgk dkt youtube dkt google. mcm2 lagi lah. blog org lah. semue pasal review phone tuh. ade jgk kekurangan die tapi semue tu aku dah tahu soo xde la keciwa sgt kn3.

my freakin new phone. n i'm freakin loving it. at least for now. i get bored easily with gadgets.

some picture yang ditangkap pakai phone ni.

muke ketat.

setakat ni oklaaa phone ni. tapi tgk review org phone ni cpt buat hal. so kene take extra careful lah dgn phone ni.
:)

2009-08-12T04:18:00.000-07:00

harini lepas class trosss g jumpe anak able.
tgk movie.
something joe.
haha xingat.
=p
dah habis movie time klua tu ade mcm org kurang upaye jln kat dpn kiteorang.
n kat blakang bdk2 skolah.
diorang glak2. ejek2.
tibe2 sebak.
ade jgk manusie macam ni.
ejek2. tau la bdk skolah.
tapi aku rase kalau bdk kecik pon xejek2 camtuh.
dah blk ni pon aku pikir lagi.
menyesal aku xpukul sesekor tadi.
sumpah menyesal.
dah la org tu tgk movie sorang2. aku rase nk je teman die.
sedih sgt. budak2 skolah camtu.
yela. cube bayangkan diri sendiri camtu.
tgk wayang sorang2. pastu kene bahan.
sedihnye aku pikir. melayu plak tu.
kalau aku pukul or tegur tadi kan xdela aku nk pikir2 sampai sekarang.
menyesal aku diam je. dose aku xtlg org kurang upaye.

aku xkn lupe harini sampai bile2. bagi pengajaran. jgn jadi batu. takat nangis sbb sedih xbley sedarkn kesilapan org lain. aku pun kene berubah. kene besyukur. walaupun susah ade yang lagi susah. kene ingat ye siti....

2009-08-02T04:25:00.000-07:00

pagi tadi bgn sumpah kelam kabut.
ma menjerit2.
kakak menjerit2.
aku rase aku pejam mate kot masuk toilet.
ngantokkk.
napelaaa nikah pepagi.
nikah la malam.
time tu sy mmg aktif!
=)
dgn tudung nk kene pakai.
yela masuk masjid.
da lameee xpakai tudung.
ble kau nk start pakai tudung btul2 hah siti???!!!

hurmmm.
odw pegi tu yan call.
baru aku tringat aku lupe kejut dieeee.
die da pesan semalam.
hehee sorry b.
nk cepat. kang ma u bising.
sampai mcm biase ankat dulang.
tukang bagi barang2 kat org.
perut dah berangin2.
last2 aku&nasreen (cousin) benti bagi barang.
lapa sgt. dari pagi xmkn kott.
nak dekat ptg baru selesaiiii.
xsaba nk blk. abg ckp nk dtg. fatin mesti ade skali.
rindunye lah kat minah sorang ni.
dah nk dekat maghrib baru abg sampai.
penat xhilang lagi jumpe fatin terus segar.
abg tido rumah mlm ni.
susah benor fatin nak tido.
semue bende die nak main.
mate aku dah berattt sgt.
esok pagi kene bgn pagi jage die lagi.
haih.

2009-07-28T10:19:00.000-07:00

I wish could tie you up in my shoes
Make you feel unpretty too
I was told I was beautiful
But what does that mean to you
Look into the mirror who's inside there
The one with the long hair
Same old me again today (yeah)

My outsides look cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I'm through
It's because of you
I've tried different ways
But it's all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
I'm just trippin'

You can buy your hair if it won't grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make up
That man can make
But if you can't look inside you
Find out who am I too
Be in the position to make me feel
So damn unpretty
I'll make you feel unpretty too

Never insecure until I met you
Now I'm bein' stupid
I used to be so cute to me
Just a little bit skinny
Why do I look to all these things
To keep you happy
Maybe get rid of you
And then I'll get back to me (hey)

My outsides look cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I'm through
It's because of you
I've tried different ways
But it's all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
I'm just trippin'

2009-07-26T07:31:00.000-07:00

bread pudding dah siapppp ye2!!
sedappp.
esok nk bwk bg yan rase lah.
;p

ma

2009-07-26T03:52:00.000-07:00

just gado with ma.
i dunno what's wrong with her.
seriously.
kalau aku ade buat slh aku xkn gado ngan die.
i mean we plan this whole baking cake thing for a week.
my fav cake. bread pudding. xpenah buat. so this is my first time.
ma ckp hari ni.
ok. ptg tu aku pegi bilik die.
die suruh aku to start first.
die bagi senarai.
ok. so aku kumpul brg2.
gule. telor. n pekakas2.
i'm so excited.
then ma dtg n trus pegang bungkusan mihun.
u.sam plak duk ulang alik kat situ. buat aku hilang mood skit.
i know husband ma lapa.
so yeahh ma kene masakkan ntuk die.
mcm biase ma kelam kabut.
aku first time buat cake ni. for sure lah slow skit.
semue yang aku buat die jerit2.
mule2 xkesah sgt sbb aku tau die nak siapkan bihun ntuk husband die cepat.
aku just ikut instruction kat buku tu.
ma jerit suruh ceoat. i mean aku buat lmbt2 sbb nk perfect.
aku susun roti tu teratur. nak cepat aku kene campak je roti tu. xnk lah kan. nanti xcantik.
ok dah perfect. then aku tabur kismis n preheat oven. tu pon die jerit2,
xpe siti saba.
then bekas kismis ma suruh basuh time tu jgk.
aku ngah nak isi air dalam bekas. so aku tarok la bekas kismis dlm singki.
aku xperasan dlm singki ade kuali bihun ma goreng tadi. n beminyak.
ma jerit2. aku sumpah tekejut. die tengking2 aku pasal bende kecik.
aku xpaham sgt. hati aku rase mcm tesentap.die ckp waste of time.
ape ney?? aku xtau pon bekas xbley tarok cmtu. sumpah aku xtahu.
ya allah kalau boleh aku xnk nangis. tapi aku rase sebak yang amat sgt.
semate2 ntuk husband die. die lupe ke aku ni anak die.
aku tau aku dah lame kehilangan ma aku.
tapi kdg2 aku ter taruk harapan yang ma aku dah macam dulu balik.
sometimes die ok. die nmpk caring sgt kat aku. tapi ble husband die ade.
die mcm lupe aku.
bile gaduh dgn husband die lepas kat aku.
aku xkesah. aku sedie tanggung sbb die ma aku.
aku tahu die jadi camni sbb husband die pengaruh die.
batu api. sumpah aku benci die..
aku xboleh benti nangis.
sedih sgt. i need a cigarette
gosh aku nak sangat call yan n cite semue ni kat die.
tapi aku xde credit. damn.
esok mmg aku ponteng class lah.
i need to see yan.

2009-07-25T11:17:00.000-07:00

ahhhh lame xupdate blog.
mls la taip2.
=DD. mls xyah la buat blog kn3??
pape lah
hari ni. jumpe yan saje. tgk wayang.
cite transformers. cite yang orang dah tgh berabad dulu. aku baru nk tgk hari ni.
SIAN KN.
best la. nangis skit2..
tadi time lalu kat counter tu ade iklan cite SETEM.
ade afdlin. arghh sumpah nk tgk cite tu.
30 july kot klua.
not sure.
tapi yang pasti aku mesti tgk jgk cite tu ble klua.
tunggu saye afdiln shauki!

2009-07-16T01:40:00.000-07:00

hari ni penat.
xtido.
penat lah meraung semalaman.
pagi buat maggi goreng. memandangkn xboleh tido.
daripade aku nangis baik buat keje bepaedah. ;p
mak ckp sdpp. mcm bihun goreng. haha, mmg lah sbb maggi n sos yang byk. hehe. ble semue dah pegi keje aku dah start blk dah. mule lah nk ingat2. mule la nk nangis2. bkn nk pon. cume xbley benti klua. kdg2 rase mcm nk tumbuk muke sampai lebam. dah sakit xde la aku piki2 lagi kn. tapi nanti nk klua. kang org ingat aku mangse dera plak. aku nangis sampai tetido. seda2 mak ketuk pintu. 2kali lagi die ketuk camtuh alamatnye lopong lah pintu tu.

bgn2 dah panik.. alaaa. bgn lambatt. datin mesti mengamuk. aku da set jam da kot. sblum ni xpenah xbgn. hadoi. lepas mandi pikir nak pakai baju ape. tetibe terase cam nk pakai baju kurung. lamee xpakai. dah siap2 semue aku n datin (mak) pegi kolej kat selayang tuh. ingat nak ambik short course. dah sampai2 byk kali aku tanye mak aku. mak hari ni cuti ke??? aku tgk kolej tuh cantik boleh tahan. tapi mcm 'hidup segan mati xmau' je. mak aku ckp xlahh. tapii xnmpk student pon. xdapekk nk cuci mate aku yang tgh sakit nih. hee.
dah settle bebagai tros pegi british council. byknyee pak arab dgn minah arabbb. mmg xbetegur lah aku. tunggu punye tunggu sampai pon turn aku. test paper aku dapat half. hai da lame xsekolah. dah behabukk aku ni. then lps tu ade mcm interview dgn org kat situ. bende paling aku xsukee. mmg payah jgk la nak 'bekomunikasi' tapi ok koot. haha. then die tegur. die tanye xtido ke? (dlm bi) aku sengih. n geleng. sebab mate aku mmg ketare bengkak. kalau senyum srupe itu tido punye olang. muke aku plak cpt merah. hidung merah sentiase hari ni. xkesah lah. bkn ade org pandang aku pon. ikut hati nak dok umah je. melayan perasaan, bekabung ;p haha.

akhirnye selesaiiii. kak neeyah (kak ipar) tunggu kat monorail titiwangse. wah. agak jauh. xpela, xbaik nyusahkan org. memandangkan da lame xg KLCC tecari2 jgk aku mane train die. aku nk tanye org xde mood. soooo pakai mesin je lah. sib baik sng. jumpe pooon. train tuh berenti kat dang wangi. aduhhh nk menapak lagi. lintas jalan. fobia sejak xcident. kalau nk lintas jalan sesorang mau 5 minit aku kat situ kalau xde kereta. kalau ade kereta lagi laaa. sampai monorail medan tuanku then pegi lah titiwangseeee.. sian aku tgk kak neeyah tunggu aku. mesti pnt. odw blk kak neeyah pasang hot fm. lagu 'sempurna' sumpah nak teburai je air mate aku ni. xpe. tahannn. pandang atas. pejam mate. last sampai rumah jgk akhirnyeee. mlm ni datin suruh pegi ceramah. xnkkkkkkkkkkk.

2009-07-13T03:12:00.000-07:00

hari ini tgk muvie ngan yan n sambol bf no 2.
:)
cite obsessed.
best.
ngantok skit.
but part last time gado tu besttt.
yan sampai blk baru aku bagitau die yang aku sbnarnye xjadi g serawak minggu ni.
=DD
padan muke sape suruh mara2 aku.

buang?

2009-07-11T05:54:00.000-07:00

harini tugas yang diberi datin adelah siang udang.
2bag!
nak dekat 2jam kot buat sorang2. si sam ni nak buat parrtyy ke ape.
adelah kdg2 jerit2 skit. bukan gile. bukan xikhlas buat keje. tapi geramm. kakak sume klua besuke ria. aku jadi bibik jgk. ingatkan hari sabtu day off. haih.

dah siap sume mak dtg dapur. semuenye okay. die angguk2 je. geram aku xhabis lagi ni. xpelah. mak sendiriii. xbaik bekire kn3.

aku baru nk ankat kaki masuk bilik nak landing sblum datin bagi tugas betimpe2. woohoo xsanggooppp. then tetibe mak ckp:u'sam kau suruh buang semue patung2 dlm bilik tuh. tu semue setan.

alaaaaaa. walaupun aku benci sam tapi btul plak ape die ckp tuh. adoi. aku dah besa. xbley simpan patung bebagai lagi. tapiiii..

patung mon2:yan bagi. sygg
patung kambing:beli kat beijing. syggg
patung pooh:bapak aku bagi time aku umur 3 ke 4 thn camtu. syyyggg gile2! sbb itulah satu2nye yang aku ade bende yang bpk bagi. hmm. aku simpan sampai skrang sbb aku sentiase rindukan bpk aku.

yang lain2 aku xkesah sgt.
haduhhhhhhhhh. nk buang ke x??!!

Shakira-No

2009-07-11T03:09:00.000-07:00

yan

2009-07-09T10:46:00.001-07:00

hari ni bgn pukul brape.
tekelah!
haha
pukul 4.
tido?
pukul 12tgh hari.
hee.
semalaman aku xtido.
bace novel.
same rutin bgn kemas rumah.
datin(mak) blk lambat skit hari ni. bley la aku relax jap.
fatin pon xdtg hari ni. rindu plak aku kat minah kecik tu. xde teman nak begaduh. xde org nk gigit lenganaku sampai lebam. sunyi je rumah. duduk2 kat dpn tv. xbkk tv pon. xde mood. temenung. bosan. sunyi pon ade. mau je aku nangis (drama queen) another day goes by. n aku still xdpt maafkn yan. *sigh

besok mcm mane la ek. minx2 faten dtg esok...
..................................................................................

better

2009-07-06T11:51:00.001-07:00

hari ni.
makin ok.
mood aku dah makin baik.
:)

listen

2009-07-06T11:47:00.000-07:00

"Heal The World"

There's A Place In
Your Heart
And I Know That It Is Love
And This Place Could
Be Much
Brighter Than Tomorrow
And If You Really Try
You'll Find There's No Need
To Cry
In This Place You'll Feel
There's No Hurt Or Sorrow

There Are Ways
To Get There
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Little Space
Make A Better Place...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

If You Want To Know Why
There's A Love That
Cannot Lie
Love Is Strong
It Only Cares For
Joyful Giving
If We Try
We Shall See
In This Bliss
We Cannot Feel
Fear Or Dread
We Stop Existing And
Start Living

Then It Feels That Always
Love's Enough For
Us Growing
So Make A Better World
Make A Better World...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

And The Dream We Were
Conceived In
Will Reveal A Joyful Face
And The World We
Once Believed In
Will Shine Again In Grace
Then Why Do We Keep
Strangling Life
Wound This Earth
Crucify Its Soul
Though It's Plain To See
This World Is Heavenly
Be God's Glow

We Could Fly So High
Let Our Spirits Never Die
In My Heart
I Feel You Are All
My Brothers
Create A World With
No Fear
Together We'll Cry
Happy Tears
See The Nations Turn
Their Swords
Into Plowshares

We Could Really Get There
If You Cared Enough
For The Living
Make A Little Space
To Make A Better Place...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me

2009-07-05T00:18:00.000-07:00

xlarat nak update blog.
tooo much is going on right now.
i have been crying like hell.
i have to stop hurting myself.

2009-07-04T08:22:00.000-07:00

siti bodoh. sekian.

cili boh? cili kering laaahh

2009-06-28T08:25:00.000-07:00

jumpe yan tadi.
alang klua. mak pesan cili kering.
aku tunggu yan.
argghh panas btol aku ngan mamat ney.
janji cm pundek. slalu mcm ney.
tehegeh2.

dlm sejam lebey cmtu baru laaa call.
tu pon sambol yang ckp.
:kau kat mane?
:rumah laaa!!
:kitorg da kat dpn nsk ney.
:ha. bye.

aku tros letak. rase nk meletup je sejam kot. jam pon dah pukul 9.30. buatnye mak aku xbg klua.
nasib baek bg.
hehe. yela nk beli brg die kn.
sampai depan nsk. aku crk mane la si gile ney. aku nmpk kreta sambol dari jauh.
msk2.
:wah sambol. ape beminyak kete kau ney!
:kreta keje lahh! nenek aku pinjam kreta aku.
:emm great.

yan ckp sumthin aku xdgr. n buat x tau pasal die. aku marah. tapi xtau nk marah die ape. masok telinge kanan kuar tlinge kiri.
: u dtg bulan ke?
: xlahh. i nk cpt lahh.

sampai nsk. mak aiii. xpenoh gakk. cam semut.
mane aku nk crk cili kering neyhh.
nak jalan pon susah. yan jalan depan. die try capai tgn aku. sejuk plak hati aku ney.
pastu sengih2. last aku pon tersengih gak. penat aku tahan. nak buat muke garang. tgk muke yan je. alahaiiii. xjadi nk marah. hmm.

nsk agak besar. dgn ramai orgnye. hmm mmg jumpe lah sgt aku cili kering ney.
try tanye pekerje kat situ.
:cili kering mane?
:xtahu. sane2 tu kot.
:hee.. (benti jela kau ney)

pusing punye pusing. yang nampak cili boh. merate cili boh semate2. yan byk kali lak tanye nk beli ape. pnt aku jwb. haih la gile ney. last2 aku suroh die tanye org keje kat situ.
:bang cili boh mane?
:neyy cili boh neyyy hahhhh
:cili kering lah yan!
:ooooo
sblah sane....
aku tgk yan tesengih2.

kiteorg jln lah pegi kat tempat tu. jumpe ponn. arghh tadi lalu sblah je kot. xprasan.
sambol da bising2 tepon. parking mmg susah nk carik.
lps bayar tros blk. xsempat beli bende laen.
haihhh.
xsempat dating.
hehehehe!

2009-06-27T09:50:00.000-07:00

I MISS YOU. A LOTTT!!!
yannnn nak hug

aarghh!!

2009-06-27T07:20:00.002-07:00

yan: you cmmnt ngan laki kn.
me: ye la. u buat hal kn?
yan: tapi ade i cmmnt ngan pempuan?
me: ade i buat hal?
ade i tipu u?
ade i maen judi?
yan: i xkire. i nk bls jgk.
me: kalau kau nk couple just nk balas ape aku buat.
xyah couple.
aku xnk sakit hati dah.
yan: i nk bls jgk.
k lah... (something die ckp aku xdgr)
bye.

wah!!!!
sakitnyee hati akuuuuuuu!!
kalau yan kat dpn aku mau aku cekik2 mamat neyh.

ade ke?

2009-06-27T03:11:00.000-07:00

hari ini. hari sabtu.
xklua.
xde duit so duduk rumah jadi bibik part time.
sambil2 lipat kaen aku tgk la cite hindustan ney. biase lah. hari sabtu kn.
cite die sedihhhh. nk kawin pon susah. mak sendiri xsuke la. pastu rumah tebakar la.
sebakul aku nangis.
pengantin pompuan tu tebakar habis. tapi die xtunjuk la. haha muke maintain cun.
tapi yang pengantin laki ney. nk jgk kawin dgn die.

point aku cite sume ney. emm ade ke bende2 mcm ney. sanggop demi cinte. sanggop mati dan sebagainye. tapi bagi aku sejujur2nye. aku sanggop demi couple aku. xkesah la couple yang dulu mahupun skrang ney (yan) . tapi kalau dah break tu mampos kau lah kn. i mean aku sentiase buat bende2 bodoh. ntuk org yang aku couple. tapi bile aku nangis. die xnangis pon. die xsedih ke tgk aku nangis?? haha. tapi semua lelaki yang aku couple. mcm relaxxx je. yan kalau aku hilang or aku klua la die jadi gile skit. tapi xkn la aku nk kene buat prangai baru die nk tunjuk die syg aku. semue laki mcm tu ke?

aku rase mcm something missing.
ke cite hindustan tu semue tipu?

kdg2 aku rase single lagi best. aku mcm lagi happy. aku reti bangun sendiri.
dgn yan plak aku rase nk die 24jam ngan aku.
gile kn?